Bruce Beresford-Redman's prison diary | Forensic Files

every day in here the first question that you ask is what can I do today that will help me get
home sadly with the pace of Mexican Justice nearly every day the answer to that question is
nothing I I have adapted to survive here but I don't want to have a prisoners mentality I don't want to have the
harshness and the hardness and the armor that I need in here to keep myself safe
and sane and to survive I want to be more the person that I was and the person that I have
been trying to protect inside throughout all this and that takes a surprising amount of effort I've been asked a
couple times um you know has this experience changed you and it's changed my perspective and changed my priorities
enormously assuming that I get out and am able to return to my family I will I will value time with them much much more
highly than I used to I miss the little moments so so much uh I remember when I used to come home Alec who was really
small he used to come and he would sit down right next to me he was just so happy to just be next to me and just be
there with me and God it was it was the most amazing feeling and I should have balanced my priorities
better I thought nothing of staying really late at work to get something done and I probably could have done it
tomorrow and spent more time with Alec and Camila and Monica and I didn't and I should
have it is very very depressing and lonely and just an awful place to be whether or not I am a survivor I think
remains to be seen oh

In a video diary made for "48 Hours," Beresford-Redman explains what he has to do to survive in Mexican prison from day to day.

Brief Summary

A guest reflects on prison life, personal growth, and valuing family time after incarceration.

Key points

The Struggle for Normalcy. A prisoner reflects on the daily fight to maintain a sense of self.
Valuing Family Time. After imprisonment, a man vows to cherish time with his family more than ever.
Regrets of a Parent. A father laments missed moments with his children due to work.

Episode highlights

Episode quotes

I don't want to have a prisoners mentality.

Reflecting on the desire for a better mindset.

0:27WatchNov 14, 2014

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